Smoking kills

In my case it kills my financial situation, so despite my actual love for smoking (I've never had any other relationship last eight years) I have now gone almost four days without a single intentional inhalation of toxic fumes (not counting exhaust gases at work, of course). I have resisted every temptation to buy cigarettes, and tried to spend as much time as possible with my new female companion, which has actually proven to be quite a remarkable way to take my mind off the addiction.

My greatest fear in this situation is that if I come to the conclusion that my economy once again can support this lethal addiction, I might fall back into the habit. I can control most of my bodily functions and emotions through will power, but smoking is on the absolute edge of what I can handle. Insanity seems to help, so if you see me climbing things or hear me making odd noises you know why.